It is not easy to push yourself emotionally, spiritually,
academically or physically but the rewards can be so satisfying. The phrase
"Open Highways" has followed me through the age of 5. I was a 1st
grade student when a group of seven classmates were placed together in the “lowest”
level reading group. Many jokes were made and feelings hurt because of the labeling
placed on us. At the time the group was established we were embarrassed to be
placed in this academic circle. However: we seven students formed a unique bond
and today we still refer to ourselves as the "Open Highways" reading
group.
I started journaling for the first time after my cancer
surgery seven years ago. It was a secure place to put my feelings and fears for
my emotional sanity. The fear of the classroom followed me throughout my adult
life, as it was a secret I had carried around for years. When out of the blue,
I was told by my employer, I must return to the college classroom and finish my
undergraduate degree to keep my employment. After dealing with thyroid cancer I
decided I had to face my classroom demons head on. So many obstacles were
occurring during those three adult "college" years that I found emotional
peace through writing. It was my safe place. Then one day I learned I needed
six hours of writing to complete my undergraduate degree. My little journal
slowly took on a life of it's own. My simple words with grammatical mistakes
combined with an unpolished writing style slowly developed into a non-fiction
memoir as the book displayed to the reader my twisted sense of humor and
determination.
There I was
self-publishing my story from the heart for all to see. When a few people
surprisingly took me back to the struggling years of my lower school days. Since
the self-publication of my journal "Hurdles" in 2010, I am often
amazed at the comments I received from the many critics. I found it interesting
of a "friend" who immediately pointed out the 31 mistakes throughout
the book. Or another friend who constantly reminded me and shared with others
the many errors they found throughout the manuscript.
It was heartbreaking
to hear them continually focus on the uncaught slip-ups instead of the message
of the book. The harsh remarks immediately brought me back to the circle of
seven chairs, as I felt compelled to reveal to others of the embarrassing
errors.
This blog is titled
Open Highways because of two reasons. It reminds me of my childhood reading
group and what we can overcome with hard work and determination. The second
reason for this title is because the sky is the limit and the road is endless. We
can do it all with God’s grace and self-determination. I challenge you to be a
better person than yesterday with a loving heart for yourself and for others.
I tell people all the time "my book has thirty-one
mistakes in it and if you are an academic snob then don’t read it." My
writing is from the heart. My style is simple which makes the reading
experience easy to follow. I love to write and explore my feelings on paper.
What you read is what you get.